Mothers I once was, by Kaveh Akbar
Written by Kaveh Akbar
Illustrations by W. Akbar
Mother fingers in the mud.
Mother begging bowl.
Mother lace-weaver drumming her web, babies
eating her whole. Bleachable mother. Mother apron
smeared with flour. Mother flower. Mother Florida,
the wet bone. The marble throne. Mother sent back.
Mother bent back curling like script. Mother depended
on light. Mother? Depends on the night.
Mother for whom the whole sky.
Mother hiding in the curtains, humming too loud.
Maggot mother at the shroud. Mother thought it possible.
Mother was wrong. Mothersong. Our Lady Mother of Wet Beds
and Aggressive Disgrace. Mother persimmon, name sounds
the way she tastes. Mother with all of creation fattening.
Mother who held on while it was happening.
Kaveh Akbar is, most recently, the author of Martyr!, his first novel. He's also the author of Calling a Wolf a Wolf, and the chapbook, Portrait of the Alcoholic.
The inaugural issue of Veena is "MOTHERS," an homage to Himanshu "Heems" Suri's mother, Veena. It also marks the launch of Veena's music, fashion, and organic wellness products, as well as Suri's new music and the first-ever vinyl edition of Das Racist's iconic mixtapes.
What of your mother's recipes, inexact and scrawled in books? What does it mean to be a working mother? What happens when motherhood isn't as beautiful as it's made to seem? Read: Mayukh Sen, Sarah Thankam Mathews, Jason Diamond, Kaveh Akbar, Tanaïs, Amil Niazi, and Meghna Rao in our first-ever issue.